I've lost my nerd. I have misplaced the keener in me and am in dire need to "get my groove back." Unfortunately, I wont be able to take any pointers from Stella (except for the fact that a trip to Jamaica would be fantastic right about now) because I doubt a romantic love affair with a person half my age would do me any good (especially at my age, I'm pretty sure that's just WRONG and ILLEGAL- although I wouldn't mind getting a little mixed up with Taye Diggs)... nor would added distraction contribute to a healthy academia.
So instead, I procrastinate and stress about how stupid I am for procrastinating and then I allow the guilt to creep up because I know I should be trying harder because I know I can....I'm smarter than that, I think. BUT! I let the exhausted, burnt out, lazy student in me take over because I am lacking academic stimulation, the root of my motivation, hard work and learning. Apparently my brain went on strike and the nerd and keener are picketing for better learning conditions... interest, passion,motivation, time management, less caffeine and more sleep!
This is going to be a long 3 months :(
