Since March of 1999, I have suffered from what I would like to call my "March Curse." It was usually associated with silly, mindless things like 'boy relations' or 'birthday blues' but regardless of whatever it was, or however stupid it was, it was a big deal for me then and something would always make feel extremely upset, disappointed, frustrated or make me cry.
Last year, 2009 was the first curse-less March, but I had to wait another year, just to make sure.... and this year's March couldn't have been better. Minus the stress of a 50% paper that was worth one full credit equivalent, 2010's March has been great! Good times, good laughs, great friends and most surprisingly, 2010 March made the list for "best birthdays" (this is surprising because I am usually a horrific birthday girl cynic). On top of this all, the last couple weeks have been jam packed with excitement and anticipation to finally finish school and start my practicum at Sick kids.
I'm actually really happy right now with a lot of things in my life and I can't remember the last time I felt like this. It actually weirds me out re: how satisfied I am with life. [Don't get me wrong, I am still motivated to achieve my goals and refuse to be content with status quo]. It just feels so good to be without so much worry, concern and stress (especially compared to me at this time last year). It feels so good to be more relaxed, less uptight about things and to be without feelings of restlessness and anxiety when I'm not in control of things. Mind you, I am still meticulous in my ways and have OCD like tendencies when it comes to organization, but the more "laid back, go with the flow, let's see what happens" Jenni is a happier Jenni. Let's keep her around.
